Today I had a whole-day meeting at the office. There was a dinner but I declined due to the kids. The meeting ended at about 7pm. I called home while on the bus to the MRT station. Kieran usually reaches home by 6.30pm and Siti would pick him up at the lobby with Raeyen in tow.
Kieran answered and as expected, he didn't bathe nor take his dinner (because neither Dad or Mom was home in time and he "overrules" Siti by default). I was not happy and told him to bathe and have dinner or I would not attend his mini function at the Kindergarten tomorrow morning (which I took half-day leave). He even raided the fridge for tidbits!
I met hubby at my destination MRT station, got home at almost 8pm and realised Kieran misspelled "shot" and "dot" as "sht" and "dop". He could spell those two along with "hot" and "pot" last evening and this morning! I was upset and even more so after I read a comment from his childcare centre teacher in his Communications book that he tore his classmate's papers because his friend asked him to do so! All these incidents rolled up as triple-whammy to me! I spent my time disciplining him at the expense of spending wee-bit of time with Raeyen, who fell asleep right after milk at about 8.45pm.
I tried my best to get home in time every day, I coached him in his schoolwork, I nurtured him and guided him to love, respect and be nice to people around him, and this is the outcome!
I am sad, no, beyond sad. I don't know what to do. I want so so much to spend more quality time with him and Raeyen, but no matter what I do, it doesn't seem enough or effective.
I don't like this lifestyle, it's unhealthy to me, my kids and my family. I don't like this society - it's unfair, ungracious, costly, too competitive, idiotic, inconsiderate, selfish...
...I'm probably going crazy!